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ystdy was my 2nd time being part of TCK,
sounds silly but even though i wasnt even doing any training,
i was feeling abit stressed & tensed for the past few days.
(yes, i can be stressed over the littlest things)

although we did preparations & logistics here & there during the weekdays,
somehow i wld say that preparation was ‘less-than-optimal’.
however, nxt time round im certain our team will DO different. (:

apart frm all these,
though i felt that the previous TCK was more impactful,
i got to be more aware of myself thru TCK number 2.
1stly, when the workshop just started,
i did not manage & monitor my own energy level & i felt rather weary.
just at 11am,
i found myself at the back of the room,
yawning with my mouth wide open.
that was when i caught myself.
i became aware,
that i was almost blending into the wallpaper when i was supposed to be pro-actively facilitating.

fortunately,
it was not too late to transform my self-awareness into action.
i led my group in the fork-game,
making sure they worked as a team,
& then joining them in yelling about their ‘best day’.
then came the part that i was most stressed about.
power move.
101% out of my comfort zone.

yelling & screaming & shouting is just not my type of thing.
ever since i was a baby,
i have always prefered to be peaceful, collected, calm & cool.
however, for TCK i knew i needed to perform, lead & bring up the energy,
so on thurs & fri, when no one was at home,
i wld do some practice.
‘YYYAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!’, i wld say.

‘ok la, still satisfactory’, i told myself.

but for ystdy, i found myself demanding even more frm my inner self,
& used i more energy than expected.
i was relatively pleased with my grp’s performance too,
cos i saw them come out of their comfort zone & see a breakthrough,
just like i did.

anyway,
last came the final segment of the programme,
although i know i can remember which gift was meant for which child just by looking at the wrapping paper,
i paid extra attention just in case.
i did not want any child to end up being the only one without a gift & letter,
neither did i want to have a mix up.
simply because we cannot afford to screw up the part on Gratitude.

the whole part on gratitude & the kids’ dreamboard sharing,
unintentionally made me reflect on ‘what i have done for my mom lately’.
what have i said or done that conveyed my gratitude towards her?
have i ever said thank u for sometimes waking up at 530am & cooking breakfast just for me?
have i ever told my mom how much i care about her?

this is going to be really high on my priority list this mth!

aside frm all these, the kids’ dreamboard sharing also made me want to revisit my dreamboard & blow the dust off it.

actually i think i shall to do so right now!

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